Today I got the e-mail. I thought maybe I'd get a phone call like the last time I was informed that I would not be chosen for the position for which I had applied and interviewed. The phone call was from a friend--so was the e-mail. This was the third denial I'd received in the last four weeks. I'm still waiting to hear about another position for which I interviewed...I thought I would have heard about that one by now.
There's been several positions posted at work lately, hence, the interviews. I am chosen for almost any job I apply for because I have years of experience and more education than almost every other applicant. HR has to schedule me for the interviews because of these qualifications. I'm not saying this to brag...it's just the truth.
On the previous job, I was glad the friend called to deliver the news. She didn't have to, but it was a nice thing to do. I personally felt I had not had the best interview, but there was hope. Today's e-mail shocked me a little. I thought I had my best interview in years, but they chose someone else.
I hesitate to tell you exactly how many positions I've applied for since 2005 and how many of those jobs I've actually been hired to do. I apply because I want to benefit both the organization and improve my personal circumstances. Plus, I feel I can do a good job if given the chance. Of course, I know things could be worse and I AM so grateful to have a job when so many have none. I just thought if a person worked hard, picked up an advanced degree, and stayed with a company for several years, it wouldn't be this hard to improve one's situation.
Tomorrow I'll go to work and do what's asked of me. I may hear on the other job; I may not. I'll look at the job postings to see if anything else has opened, and if something opens up, I'll probably apply for it, too. Days like today make me question my actions--is it worth it to put myself out there like that? Sometimes, I wonder...